Right now,
I wish I could hate you.
Right now,
all I want is to tell you
how angry I am at you.
Right now,
I could tear my heart out,
just so It wouldn't feel
the anguish that you cause it.
But, all it does is love
you.
Burn out the part of my brain
that allows for emotional stimulation.
But all it does,
is think of what's best for you.
Do what you want,
I don't care.
But have enough compassion
to not throw it in my face.
Why did you pick me?
Why did you go there?
Why did you; do you,
use me the way you have?
Why out of everyone else,
would you choose to hurt me?
Bait me, just to keep me where
you think you
You once brought me pleasure, but now you bring pain,
It tears me up to watch you go to the bottle again and again,
There's nothing I can do, but watch as your life goes up in flames,
And sit and take it each night as you call me vulgar names.
But even though you cause me so much pain,
In trying to stay away from you, my efforts are vain,
Because I like it when your thorns cut my skin,
And you mean so much to me, I don't know where to begin.
I just wish you could be like you used to,
Kissing me, and taking care of me like you would do,
Oh how I miss the time,
Before the alcohol ravaged your mind.
My life now revolves around you,
A hit here
A kick there
I can't fend off these attacks anymore.
Brutal punches fly so fast.
They meet their target of my face.
Hurtful words are flown about,
From tainted lips they get shouted out.
A slash here
Bruises there
Why won't help come?
It all gets taken in.
The marks, hits, words, everything.
Crystalline tears of sorrow drip,
As small cries erupt from bloodied lips.
Please save me.
This world of mine grows dimmer every
i wAs the child who slept on the couch
unaBle to stand the darkness
frightened of yoUr face
wanted to juSt hold your hand
but felt forsakEn
confused and bewIldered
i waS the teenager who looked in the mirror
saw flaws, saw aNger, saw the tears
saw your facE
reached out for you, through the Vicious blue
triEd for you, over the years
hated myself, wished I was someone betteR
because you cOuldnt love me
learnt to Know and protect myself
leArnt that it was safer to hate
did I ever tell You that it hurts to love you?
And now it hurts to love anyone else. Did ever I tell you that I love you still? Though I know you hate me Ha
Domestic Abuse.
He's not able to control his temper.
A blank canvas is all he is able to remember.
Absolute rage consumes his mind refusing any sort of reasoning to enter.
Her dad did the same to her mum, so she attributes it to the nature of his gender.
She has now been admitted four times to A and E since last December.
Abusive love is all she knows; she was never given the chance to experience anything better.
She always forgives him.
Her friends warned her but her heart just wouldn't listen.
He has a hold over her that's why she is not able to resist him.
She condemns her friends as to swift and hasty to dismiss him.
Even tho
just one last cigarette,
to take away this pain,
just one more little drink,
to stop stop me from going insane,
cause breathing just doesn't feel the same no more.
just one more tiny pill,
to take away this arrogance,
this confidance in me,
just one last little cut,
to bleed away this hurt inside,
its all I ask.
just one more backyard fuck,
to take away this lust,
just one more crazy stunt,
cause broken bones can heal,
but broken hearts are real.
this abuse can't go on,
but we're all so apathetic,
so pathetic when we're young,
sometimes we just forget,
whats going on.
If I'm black and blue will you love me then?
If I let you hit me again and again
If I cry and hide and bruise and bleed
If I follow you while you take the lead
If I hold your hand for the dance of death
If I let you beat me 'til I'm out of breath
I love you so much, but you knock me down
It's so tough to get off the ground
I can't take this any longer
Like a broken bone, I'll come back stronger
I'll stand and rise from the floor
I'll be better than before
I'll end all the lies and deceit
With a smile so wide while you watch me leave.